Fear

To celebrate the Halloween season, here is a list of things I am afraid of, in no particular order.

• I'm afraid I'll forget how to cook by the time I feel good enough to cook again.
• I'm afraid of men in gorilla suits. Any psych majors want to help me out with this one?
• I'm afraid I wont ever fit into my wedding dinner dress. Not so much a fear about my size, as its about how much I really really love that dress!
• I'm afraid of haunted forests, haunted houses, haunted corn mazes and the fact that Adam might force me to go again this year.
  
• I'm afraid that is a fight he is going to lose. That isn't so much a fear, as it is a fact stated like I have a southern accent.
  
• I was afraid of losing my job last march and now I'm afraid of not getting to quit.
  

Well that's all! Happy Halloween season everyone! (Idea for next post: celebration of Michael Jackson, the patron saint of Halloween)

Marriage

For me, marriage was never about not being alone. I didn't mind being alone. Friday nights were totally awesome if I had a date, or if I just watched a chick flick and did my toe nails.

Marriage wasn't about security. I had my own car, my own job, and my own apartment (okay, I shared with a roommate. . . ), I think I was pretty secure.

Marriage wasn't about passion, I think I was living just fine without it.

No, marriage wasn't about filling a void. I loved my life. I would only get married because it was so great it would be nice to share. I would only get married if I found a person that complimented me for who I was.

How did I know Adam was the perfect guy for me? A lot ways really, but I think it was driven home to me the other night. Adam was reading the scriptures to me. 2 Nephi 19 to be exact. When he came to vs 6 he paused. And he didn't have to tell me why he paused. I knew! He paused so I could sing it!! Because I wouldn't have focused on another word if I didn't get it out of my system!

Random Thought for the Day

It doesn't matter what you have on underneath (even if it is a pair of shorts) you look like an idiot walking around school with pants around your ankles.

Adam is Funny

Me: Hey your iPod says the battery is very low. But its plugged in, shouldn't it be able to charge from my computer?

Adam: Yeah it takes a minute. Very low battery means the battery is very low.

No kidding?

Just a Little Convo

The following conversation occurred while I was on the internet.

ME: Woah!! I don't know what I did, but I just made one of my little tabs into its very own window!!!!!

ADAM: Yeah. I do that all the time. (as in, duh)

ME: You do? On purpose?

ADAM: No.

(This is probably not funny to anyone but me. . . I accept that)

It was all Yellow

So I'm sitting here suffering from a really bad allergy attack. Just when I think its going to end and the tickle in my nose stops its torture, it just starts right back up again with a single watery eye and very good reason to blow my nose. If I could just sneeze I think I would feel better, but its not that kind of allergy attack, its just teasing with me. ANYWAY. . . So I didn't want to shower and do my make up yet, because it would all come off the left side of my face so I thought I would wait it out by writing a blog post. I don't know what is going to make this episode end, its not like I've taken any medicine, I'm not that smart. ANYWAY. . .

Have you ever taken the color test? Red, white, blue, yellow??? Well I heard a presentation by this guy on Wednesday and it was great. And he said that no matter what, our core personality will never change. So I guess I was wrong that I used to be a yellow and now I think that I'm a red, and that I thought at some point in my childhood I was a white, but I know that I have never ever been a blue, because that means I would have to be super selfless, which I am not. Plus I've never been a worrier.

So in watching his presentation I have once again decided that I am a yellow personality that learned how to be assertive (he explained in his presentation that its the healthy thing to do as an adult yellow). A few things that helped me realize what I was:

• Yellows are motivated by fun. They try to incorporate fun into everyday. When people seemed to ME like they didn't have very meaningful lives (so nice of me to judge, I know) I could never understand why they didn't do more FUN things. Its what keeps me going through the hard times, looking forward to something fun in the future.
  

• Yellows wake up loving themselves every day for no good reason. Enough said.

• Yellows, like everyone else, carry around a trash can where they keep all of their insults and bad things that happen to them. The only difference is that yellows have a hole in the bottom and have a hard time getting upset. Okay, hold on before you start thinking of all the times I have gotten mad. I'm not perfect on this one! BUT it reminds me of how I smile when I'm upset with Adam and how I laugh when I yell at my classes for being bad. But yeah, I can hold a grudge too.

• Yellows are afraid to face the facts. I used to not open bills if I knew I couldn't pay for them. I DON'T KNOW WHY!!! Anyway, Adam pays the bills now.
  

• Now I'm going to make myself pretty and get some work done around the house. I kind of want to have a party tonight!!

We Couldn't Help It!!

We couldn't help but laugh, a lot, when we started singing There is Sunshine in my Soul Today at church. After all, there wasn't just sunshine in my soul, there was sunshine all over my BRIGHT red arms. I leaned over before the song began and said, "I think I've had enough sunshine for awhile." Which is totally NOT true. I just haven't had enough sunscreen in my life. Anyway we chuckled through the first verse (it wasn't very funny in the 2-4 verses. . . ) Probably our favorite is the line "That glows in any earthly sky" when Adam and I both looked at my "glowing" arms. So I'll take a break from the sun for a day or two and then I'll be cautious with my exposure. :)